I remember, quite a few years ago now, when I just couldn’t wait to sit down in front of my computer – at night or when I had enough time – to write. It wasn’t my own story, not the base of it at least, but I did sit down and wrote. I let my imagination fly and built a world where I could get lost and I could be around people I never even met in real life. Thinking about it brings back memories of those years, as those few hours I spent writing were surprisingly calming.
Writing has been a huge part of my life since I was a child. I remember when everyone was talking about the total eclipse back in 1999. That day I had my special little glasses, watched the Moon blocking out the Sun, and I was so amazed by it that right after it happened I sat down at my desk and started writing an article about it. My parents found it later on, and my sister kept it until I was old enough to appreciate it because up until that point I just wanted to bin it. But it reminds me of the fact that I have always wanted to be a journalist. I just wanted to write.
In school, literature was my favourite subject, mainly because we were told to write stories, and I loved that. After leaving school though, I never really put pen to paper again. But I never stopped thinking about it. I was thinking about choosing between reading and writing just now, and I was about to start reading because that’s easier. You just need a book, and you can get lost in a different universe in just seconds. But I decided to write and my hand might be hurting a little because I’m not used to it anymore but it makes me feel better, happier, it opens a door to a different world.
Writing is an old habit of mine that I want to bring back to the present. I don’t mind if it’s a story I come up with, or if it’s writing for a website, a blog, or just journaling. I just want to start writing again. And that is the reason why I want to start a blog again. I bought everything I needed to start a year ago, and then I deleted every single post I created. Why? Because they were nothing like other well-known bloggers’ posts. I didn’t always have anything really helpful to say, and when I tried, it sounded silly… and it’s because I was trying so hard to create something very similar to what other people were posting that I lost my own voice and that led me to the thought that I just wasn’t good enough. This blog might not be your usual magazine looking space, or one that shows you the newest beauty launches or fashion trends but I can promise to bring you some of my thoughts, somewhat helpful, and hopefully entertaining posts that you can maybe relate to. It’s time I give up the horrible habit of comparing myself to others and start being myself because, at the end of the day, I’m just a weird young woman, and I sure have a lot on my mind that I want to share.